The trauma that both Becca and Alastor experienced during the war would shape their lives and lead to Alastor haunting the reincarnated Becca in the present day.
February 22, 1863
My Darling Alastor,
I received your letter today and cried with relief that you were alive. I do not know how much longer I can bear being apart from you and not knowing if you are living from day to day. You are my first thought in the morning, my last thought at night, and my every thought in between.
I heard of the Stones River battle before your letter reached me and as the casualty reports came in, I feared that you would be listed. Papa ordered me not to return to the telegraph office and promised that he would bring me news. Even though he said you weren’t listed, I didn’t believe it until your letter came. There are so many coffins on the trains now and so many widows in town. There is talk that we may actually lose this war and it will all be for nothing. How can President Lincoln allow that to happen?
Many families are sending the women and children further north. Papa and Mother are leaving and want me to go with them, but I can’t bear to leave our home. I don’t want to be away from your memory.
I miss you my love and await your return. Be safe and come home to me as soon as possible.